Cognitive Dissonant

I am the stereotypical out of work artist. Not Kerouac. Neither Duchamp nor Basquiat. Nowhere near Che. I did get awful close to Donald Judd though…

I have made more progress on a couple of projects in the last two weeks, than I have in the last two years.

But…

It won’t last. It can’t.  My parents are saints but, unless I win the lottery or something, I need to get back to work. The liberal arts are like any other line of work, no one is interested unless you have experience. Its awfully hard to get experience in one field when you’re spending 50 hours a week in another.

Most people have several careers in their lives.

The economy is in a depression, its just that no one wants to say it for fear of making it worse.

So…what do I want to be when I grow up…

I never thought I would want a hallmark ornament so much!

Warning! Major Geekout!

This has always been my favorite Sci-Fi spacecraft.

g-speak overview 1828121108 from john underkoffler on Vimeo.

There is some advantage to having a blog that I rarely tell people about…

I lost you not because I did or said anything wrong, but because what you want most right now is your independence and to explore the world on your own terms. For that, I’ll give you the best blessing I know. Good journey.

We come from vastly different worlds, I know.  I also know that the differences are what define and invigorate us. I wanted so much to show you my world. I know that little in your life up to this point has taught you faith and hope. So, I will give you mine. I offer hope that one day you will look around and realize how much more you can get out of your journey with a traveling partner. I offer faith that you will see your most sacred fantasies come true. Success may bring you brief comfort, but all of the wealth you may achieve is ephemeral, and you know this.

Life is a balance of darkness and of light.  You must let the light shine. You need no one to define you, to protect you, or, god knows, agree with you. You may not need these in a man, but what you deserve is someone to stand with you.  Please do not let demons and disappointments from your past rob you of a remarkable path that could lay ahead of you.

It means I can write an open letter without having to worry about anyone actually reading it.

Alright. since I really don’t have much to say right now, and since the last entry is almost a month old:

1. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR KITCHEN PLATES? Vanilla
2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU CURRENTLY READING? Nothing ATM.
3. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE TIME OF DAY?  Afterwork.
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BOARD GAME? Naked Clue.
5. YOUR FAVORITE MAGAZINE? Make
6. YOUR FAVORITE SMELL? Vanilla Fields
8. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? “Damn”
9. FAVORITE COLOR? Royal Blue
10. HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? All of them
11. Future (or first) CHILD’S NAME? I bet you can guess…
12. WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE? Dunno yet.  Integrity? Love? (shit I hope not) Family? Friends?
13. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? Sherbet
14. DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST? Pleading the 5th
15. FAVORITE TV SHOW? House, How It’s Made
16. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? No
17. STORMS - COOL OR SCARY? Theraputic
18. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? 78 VW Bug with a wonky transmission.
19. IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON (LIVING OR DECEASED) Dali Llama.  Buddha. Hell, I’ll even pull up chair with Jesus Christ.
20. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DRINK? Grey Goose Vodka and tonic
21. WHAT IS YOUR SIGN &YOUR BIRTHDAY? Taurus
22. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? Wait… you’re not supposed to?
23. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB WHAT WOULD IT BE? Full time artist.
24. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY COLOR HAIR, WHAT WOULD IT BE? today?  Electric Blue
25. IS THE GLASS HALF FULL OR HALF EMPTY? The glass is twice the size its supposed to be.
26. FAVORITE MOVIE? Contact, Hitch, Starship Troopers, Love Actually, American President, Notting Hill, Ninth Gate, Runaway Bride, Hackers, The Illusionist, A Beautiful Mind, Moulin Rouge, LA story, Rent, Moon Over Parador, Across the Universe.
27. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? I use the left keys too.
28. WHAT’S UNDER YOUR BED? the boogieman
29. FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? I don’t
30. WHAT IS YOUR SINGLE BIGGEST FEAR? Nothing means anything.
31. SAY ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS: I appropriated it.
32. KETCHUP OR MUSTARD? Mustard
33. HAMBURGERS OR HOT-DOGS? Burgers. Read “the Jungle” and you’ll understand why.
34. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SOFT DRINK? Dr Pepper
35. WHAT IS THE BEST PLACE YOU HAVE EVER BEEN? Marfa, TX
36. WHAT SCREEN SAVER IS ON YOUR COMPUTER NOW? blank, aged parchment.
37. WHO’S MOST LIKELY TO REPLY? Doesn’t apply in this case.
38. WHO’S LEAST LIKELY TO REPLY? No one, this is a blog post!
39. WHAT IS THE DECORATION OF YOUR LIVING ROOM? My artwork.

There, hopefully I’l have more to say before December.